What do I want?

Every doubt in life comes, in my opinion, from the same question. Who am I? What do I want? Where am I going?

When, after so long of wanting it, I decided to start a Bachelor in Graphic Design, my biggest fear was if I would ever be able to get a job and economically live thanks to it? That fear still exists, and probably will hide in some part of me forever. Although, I don’t like describing it as fear, fear paralyses people. I like calling it a consternation of what’s coming next.

In such a competitive industry, with lots of opportunities but also many people in my same position going for those opportunities, I believe that the most important decision I have to make today is to decide where am I going and what do I want? I don’t own this idea to my classes; I own it to me therapist. And also to my understanding of life where, in my opinion, if you don’t know where you are going, you’ll be wandering possibly for a long long time.

So my first decision was realizing what I don’t want. That is usually as important as knowing what I want. I don’t want to be a millionaire, I don’t want to be famous, I don’t want to win awards, I don’t want my job the be my whole life. What motivates me and where do I want to get with my career? I love design, I love visual arts, is my passion, and I just want to do what I love, and live with that. I know it’s not as easy as it sounds, but well, I have to try! I want work on my own, freelancing so I can tha flexibility that will allow me to work from home, Argentina and from Australia at the same time, earning enough money to have decent life style and enjoy my family, which one day I might have. I don’t want to be an employee my whole life, I am way too independent for that. I need creative freedom, my own timetable, and my own decision. How I am going to make money and where am I going to make customers? That’s the question I’m still trying to reply… Step by step.